The last I wrote was about the upcoming tests the doctor ordered and it seems that even though I have health insurance, albeit through the state, we will be responsible for the entire amount of the MRI out-of-pocket.
So, calling to schedule my appointment opened up a can of worms on the financial front. It’s always so much FUN being in pain and finding out that my monthly premium of $480 won’t cover even a portion of the tests needed. It’s freaking insane to have to SAVE UP for a down payment on an MRI when I HAVE INSURANCE!!!! I don’t even know how to put into intelligible words how that makes me feel.
So, calling to schedule my appointment opened up a can of worms on the financial front. It’s always so much FUN being in pain and finding out that my monthly premium of $480 won’t cover even a portion of the tests needed. It’s freaking insane to have to SAVE UP for a down payment on an MRI when I HAVE INSURANCE!!!! I don’t even know how to put into intelligible words how that makes me feel.
How’s this? *%@* #!%^@$ ^&$#%*!!
It’s a long story detailing the situation surrounding WHY I’m paying so much and what health insurance I do have, but if you want to read about it, look at the blog entry entitled
“The Personal Politics of Healthcare.”
As it goes, the appointment is scheduled for Thursday. It’s a three-part MRI. The first part is of my lower back to get a look at what might be causing the pain down my left leg. The second is of my neck. Because of the surgery I’ve had on my spine, there are concerns that the discs below where I had my fusion might now be compromised as they’ve had to do all the work for the last few years. The last part will be another scan of my neck, this time with contrast.
The pain is not something I can cope with any longer. Distractions are nearly useless, so I’m not online as often as I used to be. I could go on and on about how much it all sucks because it hurts so bad I can barely breathe, but that would just feel like complaining. Truth be told, I do want to scream and throw stuff, but that would hurt! I’ll just settle for waiting for the test results to find out what happens next.
A footnote here is that I still don’t think my family fully understands how badly I’m hurting and how much we are struggling just to keep our heads above water. I put on a good face, but sometimes I just don’t pick up the phone when my family calls because I can’t hold it together for much longer. Either they get it or they don’t. I can’t explain it anymore. I am in pain and we are broke. That’s the reality of what’s going on here.
“The Personal Politics of Healthcare.”
As it goes, the appointment is scheduled for Thursday. It’s a three-part MRI. The first part is of my lower back to get a look at what might be causing the pain down my left leg. The second is of my neck. Because of the surgery I’ve had on my spine, there are concerns that the discs below where I had my fusion might now be compromised as they’ve had to do all the work for the last few years. The last part will be another scan of my neck, this time with contrast.
The pain is not something I can cope with any longer. Distractions are nearly useless, so I’m not online as often as I used to be. I could go on and on about how much it all sucks because it hurts so bad I can barely breathe, but that would just feel like complaining. Truth be told, I do want to scream and throw stuff, but that would hurt! I’ll just settle for waiting for the test results to find out what happens next.
A footnote here is that I still don’t think my family fully understands how badly I’m hurting and how much we are struggling just to keep our heads above water. I put on a good face, but sometimes I just don’t pick up the phone when my family calls because I can’t hold it together for much longer. Either they get it or they don’t. I can’t explain it anymore. I am in pain and we are broke. That’s the reality of what’s going on here.
So sorry you are in pain, but you do a great job chronicling your ordeal here. It's such an irony: Costs so much for the insurance, you can't afford the doctor or procedure who would USE that insurance. Like asking for a loan from the bank, only to be told that you don't have enough money to get a loan. It is all such a scam. I strongly urge all those Tea-Sippers who mindlessly blather on about "Repealing Obamacare" to live a day in our shoes.
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